Feelings

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I struggle to manage feelings. Once i become vulnerable my feelings fluctuate from really happy and content to anxious and scared within minutes.

I wonder if councelling is bad for me because of this. I am at my most exposed and vulnerable with my councellor and feel happy and supported when i’m with her, and fot a day or two afterwards. Then the anxiety comes… will she suddenly disappear? Does she really care? Do i annoy her?

I woke at 3am with the most extreme palpitations ive had for a long time. I feel scared and low.

My escape is photography. I like this one that i took recently.

Hope you are all having calm days.