Mindfulness and photography

I have always loved taking photos and recently have been learning how to take macro shots.

The benefits of this have been far greater than I could have hoped for. Firstly, I get exercise and sunshine walking in the hope of finding the perfect shot. Secondly, I am doing something I love, which brings me a lot of joy and happiness. And finally, I see things that I never normally would notice… I’m looking for the detail in everything instead of walking past things mindlessly with thoughts somewhere else.

I think the focus that macro photography gives me is an example of mindfulness… I am fully in the moment as I search for my shot and carefully focus the camera. And what a series of wonderful moments they are.

Feelings

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I struggle to manage feelings. Once i become vulnerable my feelings fluctuate from really happy and content to anxious and scared within minutes.

I wonder if councelling is bad for me because of this. I am at my most exposed and vulnerable with my councellor and feel happy and supported when i’m with her, and fot a day or two afterwards. Then the anxiety comes… will she suddenly disappear? Does she really care? Do i annoy her?

I woke at 3am with the most extreme palpitations ive had for a long time. I feel scared and low.

My escape is photography. I like this one that i took recently.

Hope you are all having calm days.

Learn to love yourself?

Today my counsellor has given me homework for the week to start to love myself.

I have to do two things:

1. Look at myself in the mirror and simply smile and see what thoughts come up.

2. Ask my friends to text me with a list of my “good points”.

I’m going to give it a go but just the thought of it makes me feel incredibly anxious and vulnerable.

Who wants to try it with me? Let’s see if we can make a step towards being a friend to ourselves…

This is a photo I took on holiday in. Canada. It was such an amazing day and reminds me of how wonderful the free things in life can be.

Anxiety – what does it mean

I have problems with anxiety. What that means for me will be different to other people with the same diagnosis.

For me it feels like I have a chain around my feet. I can see where I want to get to and I can take a small step forward but I have a constraint holding me back. My enthusiasm says yes and my fear says no.

I fear having eyes on me. My heart palpitations, shakes and sweaty hands are real and debilitating.

What helps the most? Understanding. People who say “it’s OK to be afraid, but I have faith in you anyway”.

Be kind to people always. Everyone has their own battle – it doesn’t make them any less of a person. Maybe your kindness will help more more person to get off the off the big wheel and stop a lifetime cycle of unhappiness. There’s a lot of power in kindness.

Mindfulness

I am trying to incorporate mindfulness into my daily life and have realised how beneficial it can be.

I’m on a quest to improve my photography skills and learn to take good night shots. I realised after I took these photos how completely focused my mind was…. On steadying the camera, on trying to get the best composition I could (which for a complete beginner takes time!!) and on reviewing, retrying and improving.

Two hours went by in a flash and my usual chaotic mind was calm and happy.

What a blessing mindfulness can be. How will you incorporate a bit of mindfulness into your life?